Writer: Mariam El Sanabary
Editor: Ahmed Ashry
My love feels like poison.
It will seep into your veins and make you numb
To the darkness of the world and all of what you’ve seen
To cruelty in the world and your empty routine
Life will pump into your days
Your grin will expand all day
Then, you’ll find me in every corner
You’ll remember my coffee order
You’ll watch movies that remind you of me
And a little song that represents what you are to me
You’ll continue your morning texts even if I disappear
You’ll wait for me to hold you near
I am the only thing that’ll make you feel free
Utter your sins as a prayer
I’ll peel off each layer
Till you’re asleep with your heart in my palm
I’ll tread softly, don’t fear
But forgive me if someday I am not here
Believe me, it’s not by my will
My heart aches whenever it wills
Breaking, tearing, shattering every bone
As if I am not a human being that needs a home
Can you tread softly and embrace my fear?!
And when I come back close to your body as if I have never left,
Welcome my poison because it’s all I have left.
My poison feels like love.