Writer: Dima Hassanein
Editor: Khaled Mohamed
From the second I wake up, the first thing that comes to my mind is what I’ll be doing today. Do I have anything planned?
If yes, and that thing planned is leaving the house or my room then that’s when dread washes over me. If I don’t have anything planned that’s when I feel relieved.
I start creating a plan detailing what the day will look like. Clean my room, shower, breakfast, schoolwork, and then free time. As long as I don’t have to repeatedly interact with anyone, then the day sounds great. Curling up in a blanket on a rainy day with a good book and something warm to drink sounds perfect.
A good TV show with a bowl of popcorn and nothing to do sounds just as appealing.
What about leaving the house?
A huge part of my life involves me going to school, hanging out with friends, and catching up with family members. As an introvert, being in school to me means avoiding everyone except my best friends.
If I have to talk to other people and start a conversation, I would definitely feel uncomfortable, but that doesn’t mean I won’t do it.
Even though it doesn’t sound appealing it isn’t impossible.
In fact, I can be a very social person but only with the right people and with the right mood.
The problem with being an introvert is that your mind is always on.
You’re always analyzing every single detail around you, focusing on every single action people are doing as well as yourself. overthinking before you speak and if you don’t think enough you’ll regret it later. But that can also be considered a positive.
My mind is so much more complicated than it seems to other people, everything that enters doesn’t leave.
This to me means that lots of things get bottled up inside. This is a never-ending cycle.
This imaginary bottle of feelings inside of me keeps filling until finally, it explodes.
Being an introvert actually differs from person to person and could be more intense for some people. Introverted people could have extroverted qualities and vice versa. An example of an extroverted trait I have would be that I actually enjoy hanging out with my friends from time to time and maybe even throwing a party with them.
As an introvert I love spending time alone and that’s when I feel I thrive most. All the ideas come rushing and my levels of productivity and inspiration hit their peak. I become more focused and I start thoroughly organizing and planning my tasks.
This is only like 1% of what being an introvert is like. There’s so much more to know, but do I want to share everything? That’s a question you probably know the answer to.